500g gone in a fortnight....

well I have not posted for a week, so time to update you all.  Could not do it after Tuesday night as was a bit peeved to say the least.  500g down in a fortnight.  What did I learn from this? 

1. Yes I am only human and get pissed when I don't loose more too!
2. That eating my full 49 weeklies does nothing for me when I don't exercise, as in I don't get a big enough result, as I am in too much of a hurry!!!
3. That I needed to pull my head in (hence why i did not blog when I was pissed about it)  I am only human and need to be more flexible with myself which is what the program is designed to be with the 49 available each week.  I need to remind myself that when I need to sustain my weight when at goal, I need to be able to let myself be flexible.
4. And when I don't drink my water it shows big time!!!

So, Yesterday to top it all off I had a bit of a shit day, well not a shit day in the way my day went but this is it...

Got up and was on a mission and what I was up to changed, yeah a day to do jobs I needed to catch up on.  Dropped girls at preschool and did jobs up st and then did groceries, and by time I got home for lunch was 2pm and I was starving.  Whoops -  I was too hungry and could not get satisfied. so I ate more than I needed to and wasted points!!!!  So by the time I left to pick up kids from preschool I only had 1pp to eat for tea!!  What a knob, and it was all because I ate too late and got starving!!!  So for lunch I had a ww meal because I wanted something instant and put my groceries away while it cooked.  I ate it while reading and had eaten it before I realised and then was still hungry so I had a muffin split and mushroom soup no pp as well.  So spent 12pp for lunch and by this time had had 2 coffees as well. 

We then went out after school for coffee with friends so had another coffee and half a apple and cinnamon bun, shared with a friend, as I really wanted it.  So all in all I used 17 extra pp yesterday.  What a waste and lesson learnt.   I also decided I needed to eat them while I was hungry as I find if I back pedal and am hungry all the time, that just does my head in and plays stupid games.  So lesson learnt...

So today I need to get off my bum and make my lunch frittata and be back in control.  Back to normal as yesterday is history!    

We have a pot luck dinner to go to Sunday, so because I am the Kitchen bitch for this at the fire station, I will plate up my own meal and just take it and eat it, no one will notice as they will all be so involved in what they eating they have no idea!   Sometimes we think other people care too much when really as long as they are fed they don't.  I made a great mac cheese off the ww website this week, so might make that for my family dish, cherios for the kids and my own plate for me.  So mac cheese and might do a pot of veg, yummy.   The other food will be very fat laden, as they are all big stoggy food eaters.

Well have a great weekend, don't let the hunger bug bite you, he got me yesterday but not again in a hurry, serves me right for not packing a banana in my handbag like I normally do!!!

xo

Shakily Shakily

Well what a week.  We had been away for the weekend to inlaws and I had cooked out of the kindness of my heart to be selfish so I could control my own food destiny only to discover my father in laws new partner hates cooking and I love cooking!  Great exchange can be had there in the future.

No meeting on Tuesday night apart from a virtual one, so I weighed in Weds lunch time at a different venue and different scales due to bloody stupid mother nature who needs to take her happy pills!!!!!!!

My darling friend did offer to weigh me on the side of the road by a concrete elephant at a park, but no, I chose not to. LOL

I stayed the same this week but I am ok with that.  Lots to take into account,

1. different scales
2. different time and day
3. been away for the weekend
4. earthquake, but then again I had a banana instead of chocolate!

So I am not buying into it this time, normally with a gain or staying the same it would worry me, derail me, piss me off, but no not this time!

I have done my best, stuck to the program, eaten within my guidelines, not been excellent on water, but ok, not exercised only incidental but then again I am only human.

And mother nature, you my not so friendly one, you are pissing on so many people and ruining there lives.  But you are not going to stuff up my weight loss journey for me!!!  I am in control of that, even though you can rock our earth you are not determining my weight loss destiny, do you understand?

So till next week.....

I did it!!

Well I made it, I am back in the 70's!!  Whoop Whoop, has taken a year to be out of it and back in, last time I was in the 70's was June last year, so back again and it feels great!! 

Next mini goal is 77.9kg as that is the lightest I have been apart from the way up there!!  So goodbye 4.8kg in 5 weeks~!~

Some new discoveries MY style with a little help from my ww Angel!  These are my views and opinions, expressions only, not endorsed by anyone or anything else!!  If your easily offended, don't read on!

A few weeks ago, you will be able to work out when, things started happening.  Dad had died and time to concentrate on me!  Sounds awful, but he was taking up alot of my head space, running away and having him in care was hard, but we got there, he is in a much better place now!  RIP Dad, love you!!

So...  I had a few tearful moments recently with my Angel when she said to me at a very momentus moment!   One at night and one in a mall carpark!  'Why do you think you are not worth of this journey'.  Well hell that was a wake up call.  I had never thought about it like that.  But it hit one nail on the head.  I really had no idea why I did not think I was worth it?  Am I or am I not?  Why did I abuse my body and just shove more food in.  And why? (Drink is not a issue for me with my Crohns Disease as I don't drink or I pay for it).

Well I am bloody worthy of this, I decided and it was a ground breaking moment.  Those words really hit on something from within.  From then on in I have had  fantastic results, stuck to program and weigh my food, point everything and also I TRACK MY FOOD.  It is a hassle but you know what?  It makes me accountable for every thing that goes in my gob hole! 

No matter how big or small, I track it!  If I cheat, who am I cheating, not my Angel, not my lovely members but ME!!!  Who do I have to be accountable to, the scales when I get on, as they tell me what I need to know, I never weigh at home, only a once a week girl here, and of course I am accountable only to ME!  If I gain, who can I blame, ME!!  You know what, it will happen, when I track and keep within my points and not eat more than my 49 extras, (I don't eat my exercise bonus points), I don't eat out of it, I don't need to, that is heaps of food for me!   So when I do gain and if I have done the best I possibly can, as if I cheated I was only cheating myself it will be my body adjusting to the new fabulous me, it will happen, I know!

I don't do additional exercise, my life has been busy but I make sure I do heaps of incidental exercise, I run after two wee darling girls, who I want to see grow up, who are 2 1/2 and 3 1/2, work other places, and volunteer in a few organisations including running after a volunteer fire crew as Secretary/Treasurer and wife of Deputy Cheif, of 19 men and ladies!

So everyday ladies and gents, every day I say to myself when I am faced with a demon food like savoury muffins, or a treat.  I know what that tastes like, do I really need to taste it again?  It won't of changed from last time, for example a belgium biscuit, nope no change reported so no I won't have it.  This is how I cope with those moments during the day.

AND every bloody day I say to myself over and over and over again, I AM WORTHY OF THIS!!!  Do you know how powerful those words are?  They are amazingly powerful, they keep me inspired, I am not on this journey for fun, or a joke.  But because I need the help, guidance and support from my wonderful Angel and friends.  And I need to get fitter, healthy and I deserve it!!  It is not a easy thing to do to loose weight, if it was, we would not all be members, not get to meet each other, enjoy the company of each other and of course makes some lovely friendships.

I have given up making excuses and not making time for me!  I am worthy of that time and it is selfish to me, but stuff everything else it can wait, as I need to do this for me.  So when you hear about me planning my meals, I am worthy of the time, so why would I not.  If it is what makes it work for me, I have to do it, or I am only ripping myself off and making excuses when there are NO EXCUSES!!

To my darling Angel, I know you have done your major journey but you are still on your mission for the rest of your life, just as I will be when I hit my goal!  It is not easy to maintain and I think you do a fantastic job.  You are my star, you shine for me when I need you most, you tell me what I need to hear, even if I don't want to hear it!!  (now I have tears again).  You so lit something inside me that no one else has ever ever done!  You are a huge inspiration to me after loosing all your weight, I love spending time with you and listening to what you have to say.  I don't think you realise just how much we soak up what you say!  You just sparkle when you talk to us and send us on our merry way!!  You are "O" or Orsome!  You are my shining star!!!!

To you other fellow ww'ers on your journey, ARE YOU WORTHY?  Ask yourself as I know the answer will come from inside.  No one said it would be easy!!  So remember if you need a wee boost my style think about these six words.  I AM WORTHY AND NO EXCUSES!!!

Please leave me a comment, I love to hear your thoughts, this is a closed blog, you can't google to find it, your words are precious to me, and if this just makes you think twice about you and your journey or even my journey that will make me smile!  And if you think this is a load of shit, go tell someone who cares, because this is from my heart and how I feel!

Have a fantastic week, I know I will and I will come back soon and update you!!

Love ME xo

Mirror Mirror on the wall...

Well sort of anyway, today i was walking down the main street of Ranggoon and I looked at my reflection in the window, I am starting to like better what I see again.  My bum is starting to get smaller I think!!

Another 600g Bites The Dust!!

Only 1kg to go and I am back into the 70's,   WOOOHOOOOO

Tuesday again!

Yes it is Tuesday again, I love Tuesday's!!!   I am off to town to see Nana and then off to work and weigh in.

Feeling very very proud of myself this week, drunk my water everyday and tracked and weighed my food all week, eaten within my points and only eaten 11 of my 49 extras for the week, not used any bonus points earned by my pedometer either. 

So we will see............ 

I will pop in tonight to let you know the verdict  and as for exercising, well  next week, Rome was not built in a day and what I have done, I have done well, so next week it is my goal!

Wicked Shit

Well that is what I heard one person say tonight when she got on the scales and I thought yes, that is it, WICKED SHIT!!!  Well I am stoked tonight, another 1.1kg down and now 81.5 so 1.6kg to go and I am in the 70's!!!  Disco ball, here I come!!!!

Not much else to say, I tried hard and persevered, got the results and more!  My disease this week has been balanced and I have not had a night where I have lost my dinner, so a great balanced week really.

I had a Grand Chicken Seared Burger for lunch at MacD's (Old Mac Farmers - as the girls call it) and it was fantastic.  11pp but worth every pp and it is very filling I think!

I have noticed in the last week, my eyes are getting way way way bigger than my belly and I am not finishing my meals as much as I normally would of.

Have a great week, and I will update if I have any new revelations.

Goals this week, exercise at least twice, mini pump  of water EVERY day and track/journal every day!!!

xo