Well I made it, I am back in the 70's!! Whoop Whoop, has taken a year to be out of it and back in, last time I was in the 70's was June last year, so back again and it feels great!!
Next mini goal is 77.9kg as that is the lightest I have been apart from the way up there!! So goodbye 4.8kg in 5 weeks~!~
Some new discoveries MY style with a little help from my ww Angel! These are my views and opinions, expressions only, not endorsed by anyone or anything else!! If your easily offended, don't read on!
A few weeks ago, you will be able to work out when, things started happening. Dad had died and time to concentrate on me! Sounds awful, but he was taking up alot of my head space, running away and having him in care was hard, but we got there, he is in a much better place now! RIP Dad, love you!!
So... I had a few tearful moments recently with my Angel when she said to me at a very momentus moment! One at night and one in a mall carpark! 'Why do you think you are not worth of this journey'. Well hell that was a wake up call. I had never thought about it like that. But it hit one nail on the head. I really had no idea why I did not think I was worth it? Am I or am I not? Why did I abuse my body and just shove more food in. And why? (Drink is not a issue for me with my Crohns Disease as I don't drink or I pay for it).
Well I am bloody worthy of this, I decided and it was a ground breaking moment. Those words really hit on something from within. From then on in I have had fantastic results, stuck to program and weigh my food, point everything and also I TRACK MY FOOD. It is a hassle but you know what? It makes me accountable for every thing that goes in my gob hole!
No matter how big or small, I track it! If I cheat, who am I cheating, not my Angel, not my lovely members but ME!!! Who do I have to be accountable to, the scales when I get on, as they tell me what I need to know, I never weigh at home, only a once a week girl here, and of course I am accountable only to ME! If I gain, who can I blame, ME!! You know what, it will happen, when I track and keep within my points and not eat more than my 49 extras, (I don't eat my exercise bonus points), I don't eat out of it, I don't need to, that is heaps of food for me! So when I do gain and if I have done the best I possibly can, as if I cheated I was only cheating myself it will be my body adjusting to the new fabulous me, it will happen, I know!
I don't do additional exercise, my life has been busy but I make sure I do heaps of incidental exercise, I run after two wee darling girls, who I want to see grow up, who are 2 1/2 and 3 1/2, work other places, and volunteer in a few organisations including running after a volunteer fire crew as Secretary/Treasurer and wife of Deputy Cheif, of 19 men and ladies!
So everyday ladies and gents, every day I say to myself when I am faced with a demon food like savoury muffins, or a treat. I know what that tastes like, do I really need to taste it again? It won't of changed from last time, for example a belgium biscuit, nope no change reported so no I won't have it. This is how I cope with those moments during the day.
AND every bloody day I say to myself over and over and over again, I AM WORTHY OF THIS!!! Do you know how powerful those words are? They are amazingly powerful, they keep me inspired, I am not on this journey for fun, or a joke. But because I need the help, guidance and support from my wonderful Angel and friends. And I need to get fitter, healthy and I deserve it!! It is not a easy thing to do to loose weight, if it was, we would not all be members, not get to meet each other, enjoy the company of each other and of course makes some lovely friendships.
I have given up making excuses and not making time for me! I am worthy of that time and it is selfish to me, but stuff everything else it can wait, as I need to do this for me. So when you hear about me planning my meals, I am worthy of the time, so why would I not. If it is what makes it work for me, I have to do it, or I am only ripping myself off and making excuses when there are NO EXCUSES!!
To my darling Angel, I know you have done your major journey but you are still on your mission for the rest of your life, just as I will be when I hit my goal! It is not easy to maintain and I think you do a fantastic job. You are my star, you shine for me when I need you most, you tell me what I need to hear, even if I don't want to hear it!! (now I have tears again). You so lit something inside me that no one else has ever ever done! You are a huge inspiration to me after loosing all your weight, I love spending time with you and listening to what you have to say. I don't think you realise just how much we soak up what you say! You just sparkle when you talk to us and send us on our merry way!! You are "O" or Orsome! You are my shining star!!!!
To you other fellow ww'ers on your journey, ARE YOU WORTHY? Ask yourself as I know the answer will come from inside. No one said it would be easy!! So remember if you need a wee boost my style think about these six words. I AM WORTHY AND NO EXCUSES!!!
Please leave me a comment, I love to hear your thoughts, this is a closed blog, you can't google to find it, your words are precious to me, and if this just makes you think twice about you and your journey or even my journey that will make me smile! And if you think this is a load of shit, go tell someone who cares, because this is from my heart and how I feel!
Have a fantastic week, I know I will and I will come back soon and update you!!
Love ME xo
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