I did it!!

Well I made it, I am back in the 70's!!  Whoop Whoop, has taken a year to be out of it and back in, last time I was in the 70's was June last year, so back again and it feels great!! 

Next mini goal is 77.9kg as that is the lightest I have been apart from the way up there!!  So goodbye 4.8kg in 5 weeks~!~

Some new discoveries MY style with a little help from my ww Angel!  These are my views and opinions, expressions only, not endorsed by anyone or anything else!!  If your easily offended, don't read on!

A few weeks ago, you will be able to work out when, things started happening.  Dad had died and time to concentrate on me!  Sounds awful, but he was taking up alot of my head space, running away and having him in care was hard, but we got there, he is in a much better place now!  RIP Dad, love you!!

So...  I had a few tearful moments recently with my Angel when she said to me at a very momentus moment!   One at night and one in a mall carpark!  'Why do you think you are not worth of this journey'.  Well hell that was a wake up call.  I had never thought about it like that.  But it hit one nail on the head.  I really had no idea why I did not think I was worth it?  Am I or am I not?  Why did I abuse my body and just shove more food in.  And why? (Drink is not a issue for me with my Crohns Disease as I don't drink or I pay for it).

Well I am bloody worthy of this, I decided and it was a ground breaking moment.  Those words really hit on something from within.  From then on in I have had  fantastic results, stuck to program and weigh my food, point everything and also I TRACK MY FOOD.  It is a hassle but you know what?  It makes me accountable for every thing that goes in my gob hole! 

No matter how big or small, I track it!  If I cheat, who am I cheating, not my Angel, not my lovely members but ME!!!  Who do I have to be accountable to, the scales when I get on, as they tell me what I need to know, I never weigh at home, only a once a week girl here, and of course I am accountable only to ME!  If I gain, who can I blame, ME!!  You know what, it will happen, when I track and keep within my points and not eat more than my 49 extras, (I don't eat my exercise bonus points), I don't eat out of it, I don't need to, that is heaps of food for me!   So when I do gain and if I have done the best I possibly can, as if I cheated I was only cheating myself it will be my body adjusting to the new fabulous me, it will happen, I know!

I don't do additional exercise, my life has been busy but I make sure I do heaps of incidental exercise, I run after two wee darling girls, who I want to see grow up, who are 2 1/2 and 3 1/2, work other places, and volunteer in a few organisations including running after a volunteer fire crew as Secretary/Treasurer and wife of Deputy Cheif, of 19 men and ladies!

So everyday ladies and gents, every day I say to myself when I am faced with a demon food like savoury muffins, or a treat.  I know what that tastes like, do I really need to taste it again?  It won't of changed from last time, for example a belgium biscuit, nope no change reported so no I won't have it.  This is how I cope with those moments during the day.

AND every bloody day I say to myself over and over and over again, I AM WORTHY OF THIS!!!  Do you know how powerful those words are?  They are amazingly powerful, they keep me inspired, I am not on this journey for fun, or a joke.  But because I need the help, guidance and support from my wonderful Angel and friends.  And I need to get fitter, healthy and I deserve it!!  It is not a easy thing to do to loose weight, if it was, we would not all be members, not get to meet each other, enjoy the company of each other and of course makes some lovely friendships.

I have given up making excuses and not making time for me!  I am worthy of that time and it is selfish to me, but stuff everything else it can wait, as I need to do this for me.  So when you hear about me planning my meals, I am worthy of the time, so why would I not.  If it is what makes it work for me, I have to do it, or I am only ripping myself off and making excuses when there are NO EXCUSES!!

To my darling Angel, I know you have done your major journey but you are still on your mission for the rest of your life, just as I will be when I hit my goal!  It is not easy to maintain and I think you do a fantastic job.  You are my star, you shine for me when I need you most, you tell me what I need to hear, even if I don't want to hear it!!  (now I have tears again).  You so lit something inside me that no one else has ever ever done!  You are a huge inspiration to me after loosing all your weight, I love spending time with you and listening to what you have to say.  I don't think you realise just how much we soak up what you say!  You just sparkle when you talk to us and send us on our merry way!!  You are "O" or Orsome!  You are my shining star!!!!

To you other fellow ww'ers on your journey, ARE YOU WORTHY?  Ask yourself as I know the answer will come from inside.  No one said it would be easy!!  So remember if you need a wee boost my style think about these six words.  I AM WORTHY AND NO EXCUSES!!!

Please leave me a comment, I love to hear your thoughts, this is a closed blog, you can't google to find it, your words are precious to me, and if this just makes you think twice about you and your journey or even my journey that will make me smile!  And if you think this is a load of shit, go tell someone who cares, because this is from my heart and how I feel!

Have a fantastic week, I know I will and I will come back soon and update you!!

Love ME xo

Mirror Mirror on the wall...

Well sort of anyway, today i was walking down the main street of Ranggoon and I looked at my reflection in the window, I am starting to like better what I see again.  My bum is starting to get smaller I think!!

Another 600g Bites The Dust!!

Only 1kg to go and I am back into the 70's,   WOOOHOOOOO

Tuesday again!

Yes it is Tuesday again, I love Tuesday's!!!   I am off to town to see Nana and then off to work and weigh in.

Feeling very very proud of myself this week, drunk my water everyday and tracked and weighed my food all week, eaten within my points and only eaten 11 of my 49 extras for the week, not used any bonus points earned by my pedometer either. 

So we will see............ 

I will pop in tonight to let you know the verdict  and as for exercising, well  next week, Rome was not built in a day and what I have done, I have done well, so next week it is my goal!

Wicked Shit

Well that is what I heard one person say tonight when she got on the scales and I thought yes, that is it, WICKED SHIT!!!  Well I am stoked tonight, another 1.1kg down and now 81.5 so 1.6kg to go and I am in the 70's!!!  Disco ball, here I come!!!!

Not much else to say, I tried hard and persevered, got the results and more!  My disease this week has been balanced and I have not had a night where I have lost my dinner, so a great balanced week really.

I had a Grand Chicken Seared Burger for lunch at MacD's (Old Mac Farmers - as the girls call it) and it was fantastic.  11pp but worth every pp and it is very filling I think!

I have noticed in the last week, my eyes are getting way way way bigger than my belly and I am not finishing my meals as much as I normally would of.

Have a great week, and I will update if I have any new revelations.

Goals this week, exercise at least twice, mini pump  of water EVERY day and track/journal every day!!!

xo

Today is D Day

Well today I take a step closer to the 70's when I jump onto the scales tonight.  I have tracked every day and weighed all my food except when I was out at a chinese restaurant and thought that would look a bit stupid if I grab the scales out of my handbag.  I have 21 weekly points still left to use, so pleased with that.  It has allowed me to make good decisions during the week and not feel like I am being deprived.

I don't feel like I have drunk enough water this week, I have tried but not very hard.  I have a few wee small achieveable goals for myself this week.

1.    Drink a mini pump of water every day, more if possible

2.    Exercise at least twice this week, I have been doing none lately, time to make time for me again!

3.    Track everyday in my journal so I make myself accountable for what I eat.

I had a savoury muffin this week on Saturday with a friend.  It was approximately 15 pp, who would waste that on a muffin I hear you say.  They are my weakness and I found once I had one, I wanted more.  So I know to stay clear.  Hubby normally has a savoury, but he actually prefers sweet, which I hate so from now on, I will just buy him a sweet one without asking, have none myself - which I can live with and problem solved.  I now know not to have any, as it just makes me want more.  Which was even harder.  I remind myself constantly when I look at a food - I have eaten it before and what did it taste like?  yep you know what it tastes like, so why do you need another and this normally makes me think twice.  In fact most of the time, I hear my inner voice say, "I know what that tastes like" and that is normally enough for me to look on or move on.  Hope that makes sense but it is one way I look at temptation.  If I really wanted it and had to have it, then I would either share or decide if I want to really spend pp on that!!

Will come back in once I get home tonight to let you know how I have gone.  Have a great day all!  Don't forget to drop me a wee line!!!

Wow where has the time gone?

I cannot believe I have not posted for so long!!  It has been a huge few months and weeks.  My dad passed away on the 19th of April expected but still very suddenly.  So in 2 1/2 weeks over that period I put on 2.6kg and during the earthquake month I put on 2.1kg over nearly 4 weeks, so as you can guess what it has done to my weight loss.  But with a lot of soul searching and help from wonderful friends and supportive family and colleagues I am back on track!!  You know who you are and thank you!  I lost 1.2kg on my next weigh in and then 800g last week, so I am now 82.6kgs. 

My next mini goal is to get into the 70's and be a 70's chick.  I have been there before but not since, well not for a bloody long time!  June last year I was at my lowest at 77.9kg (loss of 18.7kgs) so I am out to beat this and more in the very near future. 

I have been asked recently why I don't think  I am worthy of this.  I am one who gets on the scales and I am always just me, I guess but I am never overjoyed.  So I am trying to change the way I think and remind myself everyday, more often than once that I am very worthy of being a healthier me which will lead to me being happier.  My Crohn's disease does hinder sometimes but I try to just brush over it and move on.  If I eat lots of fruit or veg, high fibre I pay for it.

Well guys and girls, that is a wee update from me at present.  My hubby is working huge hours due to the earthquake, so I am finding evenings a tad hard and I can hear the pantry calling my name often.  I try and counteract that with fruit mainly.

My weigh in is now on a Tuesday evening, so I will be sure to keep you all updated.  Thanks for reading and remember, you too are worthy of being a happier, healthier person too!!!

xo